my gf jen sent this to me this week and i just loved it. i am reading bethenny frankel's "place of yes" and she talks also about the difference of "noise" and "voice". very interesting and helpful, and here steve jobs (genius) talks about "noise" also and the issues it can cause in your life. trying to identify the current "noises" in my life and how to get rid of them.
this past month i had a few biopsies done and was completely anxious waiting for the results. all my results were received and luckily benign, but both required minor surgery. i have never had surgery before which lead to additional anxiety, and fear.
last friday i had the tumor removed from my breast and all went smoothly and i am happy to report, although sore - everything turned out to be okay. i have my second procedure scheduled in march and it is a much simpler procedure, so i am feeling a bit more at ease.
similar to the quote above, this month has been absolutely shitty. between car problems (walked out to a flat tire again after work last night) and medical issues this month i can honestly say it has been the worst month ever (and wouldn't you just know that this is the year to have one extra day of shitty-ness).
after seeing my tire last night i just broke down. and i felt a little ridiculous at my behavior but i just felt picked on and angry and frustrated and wanted to scream "ENOUGH ALREADY". luckily b came to my rescue and changed out my nail pierced tire, luckily i have an amazing family, luckily i have incredible friends and luckily all of these things i have been letting affect me and bring me down are all minor fixable things.
while i get upset for allowing these "little things" to bother me as much as they have, it's ok. it's ok because sometimes shit happens, and sometimes it's ok to just cry, scream, vent, pout, whatever.
it's also ok to be done with it now. to look forward to a new month and not dwell on the past. because in the end, it's all ok.